Love, life and the pursuit of drama.

What is it about my deep respect for chivalry that attracts the damsels in distress? Don't get me wrong. I see no fault in rescuing the occasional maiden. Today, though, I'm tired of the firebreathing dragon. I'm putting down my sword, my armor, and my codes, and adopting a "friend zone policy" that will hopefully give my heart enough time to mend.

What it's leaving me with, though, is a profound sense of unfairness. One that, as we speak, leaves me unable to even muster the desire for a wonderful girl that wants to offer me the world. Instead, I push her away. Do I want to fix it? Part of me is sure that it's in my best interests. Part of me knows I'll regret it. Every bit of me wishes she knew I was talking about her. So how do you do it? Rationally, there's a season for everything, and this obviously is no season for love. What happens if I push the envelope? I'm sure a disaster of lackluster proportions. Ever ended a relationship because no spark was there? It's sad, really.

So this leaves me with a very special problem this Valentine's Day. Unfortunately, it's my favorite season of the year. Much like the year before last, I am in no kind of committed relationship, and if the woman who recieves the most of my affection gets all I wish I could do for that special someone, well, it would be undeserved and a little overwhelming (in a good way, of course). So I need a better outlet. At least last time, I found some wise woman who knew how much I loved the holiday, and that I didn't love her. Easy enough to swallow. We played one round of Scrabble, a few dates, and one magical Valentine's Day where we pretended we had found the person we were searching for.

I've been on a few more dates with this woman, and I doubt she could understand. Maybe because it was so sudden. Maybe because the woman from the past was not very good at being romantic. Either way, I must find a way to celebrate all the romance of the coming holiday without causing trouble for myself or some innocent bystander :-\

Oh, snap!

Last blog in APRIL??? APRIL??

Can't say I'm surprised. I let ANYTHING be a good excuse for getting sidetracked. This is not a place marker, but a new beginning. So many plans, always going to the wayside. The goal is the same as always. I want to be the GoToGuy. I need be the guy people go to for answers. Who doesn't want to be?

Web administration was fun, but mostly a dead end. Someone once told me that the secret to success was to find something no one else wants to do, and do it well. Turns out I've been here all along- at the same wire rope job for years. Well, this year is going to be different. I've enrolled in a course to teach me more about wire rope, and I plan to spend the year becoming an expert- whatever that means.

I've been digging some angles, and there's so many ways to go about it. The different wire rope applications, the math for making wire rope work, the little nuances of wire rope as it's used in my own field. Any way I go, rest assured, I have my work cut out for me.

On an interesting side note, I'm going on a cruise!! I'm very excited to finally get the hell out of the country, and spend some time being mugged by people who don't speak my own language. I've asked a good friend to come with me. She obliged, and it seems so funny that by the time we make it to the ship, who knows what kind of relationship we'll have by then! Ha. As it stands now, she bought me dinner for my birthday, and surprised the hell out of me with a FANTASTIC kiss... then casually said, "Well, good night!"

Ha... Hooray for the unusual.